I thought he truly had my heart
"He'd never break it," i said,
but it all happened to fast
and now my insides feel dead.
i've got nothing left to lose
i have no where left to go,
i always feel lost and
my world has lost it's flow.
When you were around i felt like me,
There wasnt anyone I'd have to pretend to be.
Now i hate myself
because i remind me of you,
and everything you said
i believed to be true.
My soul is damned, my heart is lost.
So now I'll hide myself away from humanity,
It was you who caused my insanity.

If my eyes hadnt been blurry from my tears, [at school]
i would have decked her out in an instant.
She was right there, right behind me,
but i couldnt even bear to look at either of them...

I was walking home after he ended it.
i walked through the trail that takes me to my house
and the whole way there, i was crying...
Then somewhere hidden in the trail,
i fell down, unable to keep going, and cried harder.
Then i heard a noise,
it sounded faint at first,
but then it got louder...
a scream.
A loud, sharp, ear piercing scream.
i didnt realize, until after i heard it, that the scream came from me...
There was only one other time, another incident, where i screamed like that.

Now, I keep looking out my window,
everytime i hear a car pass by to see if it's his.
...False Hope...
i beat myself up, on the inside, every time i look over...
My relationships always end up in shit.
This just made the second worst one ever.

He just broke every last piece of me
into even smaller shards of myself.
I still dont know what i'm going to do with him.
Part of me wants him and HER to go away forever
and part of me wants to just forget what happened between us and just be friends.

...oh, and i havnt eatin anything in over 50 hours... except a piece of pizza...



"The future isn't set in stone, things change."
-Edward from Twilight